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*: a poem I wrote four years ago, forgot, then found…

a poem I wrote four years ago, forgot, then found tonight: 

you can listen to an mp3 of that 37 second recording of walt whitman at the same time your lover listens to a midi mix of here comes the sun, this the full politics

of the ear’s occupation.  Hazel says, as I brush her hair, “you are only allowed to think of an event as a tragedy once you are already dead”

in this america which lasts exactly 37 seconds and is difficult to interpret

these were the best intentions, and also, the voice’s congenial classless intoning, and knowing also that there are around us these spectres of the once vastly perceived

and ample: law and love still, willed

to us, an anachronistic inheritance, or, ruined broad forethought, or national art / these commons kept in a mattress like a currency of a confederacy never formed.

I will say it straight that I am this morning vacillating  between the routine of shipwrecked despair and the storm itself  wrecking, undecided about the durability of either

I walked aboard that ship, long ago shattered. Things were different.  I once was at sail robust and undiminished, probably a boy

and then most scars and also holidays and every unformed infant impossible, my very form — a boy’s and sailor’s — allergic to despair

and how unplagued by tragedy’s impossible definition I was the one dreaming in each bed into which I fell

and me, Anne Boyer,  falling,  also, in the sunlight, into a reverie against alien architectures and simultaneously into a boyish engineering

(from which I have forged)

of those remnants by which I now form, at least, a substance,  imagine an unalien end.

*: a poem I wrote four years ago, forgot, then found….

I still do – I AM KLOOT, Manchester Academy 14 Feb 09